It's an art

truly

to start

the kind of fire

you dont want to

you dont want - oh

but you admire

sadistic strings

empty

thoughts

float through things

like life.

Hilarious!

Well life certainly has changed.

Here are the big updates:

• I gave birth to my daughter Elizabeth April 14th, 2009.
• She was born at 25 weeks.
• Now at three months, she is doing alot better, still on heavy oxy support
• I got married May 1st right after being discharged from the hospital
• I still like cookies

So life has been crazy! It's hard adjusting to being married.

Well last night we were hanging out with one of his friends and my antisocial self sat in the back of the car, listening intently- laughing when appropriate, my paranoia rising with each moment.

Eventually my husband told his friend we would have to go and his friend looked so sad!!! Like, he couldn't handle the fact we had to go. It was soo hilarious! I don't even look that sad when I leave him. He was even hanging his head and then said in a quiet voice.. ,"alright man,.. we chill again soon". Aw, but it was so cute! hee hee hee

Looking at myself I see I'm still growing in alot of areas. Yay for growth!

Cheers Mates!

A poem, to vent, circumventing issues again

Today I feel a little sick

I look at my waist now so thick

I sigh because in a few I've got to leave

to a class that will teach me to breathe

through a most diffcult ordeal

my god- I still feel so surreal

Sometimes alone, mostly in my mind

Waiting for peace a rare find

Its the biggest broadway show of my life

Role of mom, mother, and yes even wife.

Selena, the 14th year

14 years already-

That I've been a fan-

I've been learning Spanish-

Learning (and suceeding!) at dancing Cumbia-

14 years ago I was 14?!?

Im at work, but all I can think of today is Selena. I don't remember her in saddness but today of all days I will blast her music even louder.

Not Gone, or forgotten- really

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Charla Nash

I think I want to do some sort of fund raiser event for her.

Any Ideas?

Please check out this interview with her brother too:

http://www.myfoxny.com/dpp/news/local_news/connecticut/090309_Interview_Chimp_Victims_Brother

be blessed!